Sunday, August 31, 2014

Sabse Adhik Tumhi Ro-oge - Ram Avatar Tyagi

Every time I read this poem my heart bleeds, it can't be explained more beautifully than in the words of Shri Rajiv Krishna Saxena

"All of us have gone through those very private moments when we meet some one with whom we have a very special binding and who may care the most for us in this world. While others may be vocal and demonstrative but that special relationship is beyond words and can only be expressed in silence. This is a remarkable poem by Ram Avtar Tyagi Ji. So intensely private that one almost feels embarrassed in sharing it with the poet. What a gem!"

सबसे अधिक तुम्हीं रोओगे / रामावतार त्यागी

आने पर मेरे बिजली-सी कौंधी सिर्फ तुम्हारे दृग में
लगता है जाने पर मेरे सबसे अधिक तुम्हीं रोओगे !

मैं आया तो चारण-जैसा
गाने लगा तुम्हारा आंगन;
हंसता द्वार, चहकती ड्योढ़ी
तुम चुपचाप खड़े किस कारण ?
मुझको द्वारे तक पहुंचाने सब तो आये, तुम्हीं न आए,
लगता है एकाकी पथ पर मेरे साथ तुम्हीं होओगे!

मौन तुम्हारा प्रश्न चिन्ह है,
पूछ रहे शायद कैसा हूं
कुछ कुछ चातक से मिलता हूँ
कुछ कुछ बादल के जैसा हूं;
मेरा गीत सुन सब जागे, तुमको जैसे नींद आ गई,
लगता मौन प्रतीक्षा में तुम सारी रात नहीं सोओगे!

तुमने मुझे अदेखा कर के
संबंधों की बात खोल दी;
सुख के सूरज की आंखों में
काली काली रात घोल दी;
कल को गर मेरे आंसू की मंदिर में पड़ गई ज़रूरत
लगता है आंचल को अपने सबसे अधिक तुम ही धोओगे!

परिचय से पहले ही, बोलो,
उलझे किस ताने बाने में ?
तुम शायद पथ देख रहे थे,
मुझको देर हुई आने में;
जगभर ने आशीष पठाए, तुमने कोई शब्द न भेजा,
लगता है तुम मन की बगिया में गीतों का बिरवा बोओगे!


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Friday, August 29, 2014

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Monday, August 25, 2014

Journey

25th August 2014 blog entry 23:  As always, all of them on the platform rushed to board the train, even when ‘she’ was shouting at the top of her voice that it will leave at 1.20 pm, an hour and half from now. She keeps shouting day and night, someday I shall speak to her. You humans, why are you always in a hurry, I could never understand. The seats have been decided, the time you know but you still make such a fuss over entering the train. I Guess life is a journey for you
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Unlike her, the train never speaks, many a times I have tried to spark a conversation, but all in vain. I guess she has larger things in mind, the train. Me, I keep talking to everyone passing by. The humans never pay heed; no one does as a matter. The pigeons always listen; I guess they are from somewhere else, looking for something. They always listen.

Let me introduce myself to you, I am the seat no. 65 of a certain Janshatabdi, part of the great Indian railways, and ya I talk too much, I am a window seat you know.

I have been talking since my inception, but this is the first chance I have had to write my thoughts down. How I got the chance to use this pen of his is a long story, I’ll come to that.

 I had a Nobel bearth. I am no normal bearth, I am a highly advanced seat model of the chair car series. During inception, I had been put on the AC cabin manufacturing line for some time, but was then transferred to the normal chair car section, hence, I am special.

I have been watching you humans travel here and there daily, watching you and your stupidity is my life. On one such fine Sunday afternoon, this guy whose blog space I am using right now entered the train, ya an hour and half early than the scheduled departure and occupied me, seat no. 65, the window seat, I told you I am special.

The pigeons had told me it was August, and it was supposed to rain, but it didn't, the pigeons were worried and were investigating the matter. The train was silently standing below the sun, as for the passengers they were feeling the heat.

After observing you people for so long I can correctly judge you, your thoughts and following actions. This guy who seemed to be in his late twenties, who I think was just a silent observer but a man not capable of action; he had good intentions but did not had the heart to accomplish them as such. Was a voracious reader too, read 2 complete novels in the span of the short journey. Might be a nomad, couldn't guess his place of origin or where he belonged to. So this guy had a bottle of water, finished it off and threw it out of the window. Although I am a cool seat I was not able to provide any relief to him this day. He was quietly shifting in his seat reading the novel when suddenly, the other kind of humans entered, 4 of them exactly, shouting, crying making such hell of a noise the train god knows for what. 

The moment they occupied seats besides the reader, one of them opened a couple of bags of chips, with biscuits and a number of other edibles packed in plastic bags of varying shapes, sizes and color. They kept munching, and chattering animatedly to each other. They were the only reason I got distracted from the reader, I had to help the other seats, my fellow beings.

These chitchatters I speak of had colorful taste in clothing, starting from violet to red and what not. And every other moment one or the other kept clicking a selfie, I tried a lot but never managed to get in any of the shots. I had never had an FB appearance till now and this chance too seemed to have been lost. But they were clicking continuously and munching furiously.

They say humans are the only living beings who generate garbage, and this lot generated garbage by the minute. An hour after their arrival the surroundings was filled with plastic bags proudly displaying company names of multinational stature. These names could have been used against them only if these humans could think. But alas, all they were interested in where those selfies.

With the rise in temperature they started consuming, dubious colored beverages of various kinds, and that too got collected on to the floor. The reader although noticing these things kept reading, without a word of advice, he thought better of himself.  More than an hour had passes since the journey had started, a faint smell of petroleum gases in the air announced the arrival of Mathura, I knew all the cities by their smells, its exact that way. The news of Mathura arriving might have got into their ears too, the excitement of the four colour full persons reached a new level, they started repacking rearranging and jumping up and down with joy.
Suddenly one of them came up with yet another plastic bag, big and empty this time, and what they did next made me reconsider the way I judge people altogether. All of them, yes all four of them started to collect all the garbage that was spilled around the general area they were sitting and started to stuff it in the big empty plastic bag, which within a few seconds got filled. After that they gave a quick glance towards the floor and seeing it empty they satisfactorily nodded at each other. The train by now had stopped at Mathura junction, all four of them rushed outside with their baggage and the garbage bag, I recollect I could faintly hear them discussing about throwing the garbage bag into an incinerator of some kind .They were gone in a jiffy , and me and the reader were the only persons left  in the vicinity.

After 10 long years, I stopped talking and pondered a little, I really needed to change the way I look at people, I thought. And then with the powers vested upon me by the great Indian railways, and with the consultation of the pigeons, I declared the reader guilty of spreading plastic garbage. He had after all thrown out a plastic bottle on to the railway tracks.

The reader pleaded for mercy, but there was none in store to be shown. And as a result he had to surrender his blog space to me, the Window seat no. 65, so that I can tell the truth about him. Ok I have done what I intended to do, now I hand over the pen to him. Ba bye.



25th August 2014 blog entry 23:  Dear friends, I was travelling today, the heat in the train was too much for me, I guess I spoke to my seat during the entire length of the journey, but I guess I was hallucinating, I feel too much tired to write so today I might skip the job, as for the pigeons I really think they are into something.





Friday, August 22, 2014

Ek Anubhav hua naya..!!



Quite a few dayz back, in my usual wanderings around the plant had an peculiar encounter with the "Literate India".


It was a magnificent night with a cool breeze blowing and the travelers moon shining bright & high. The setting and timing where perfect, from a dreamy sequence & on top of it I was trying to balance myself between engulfing drowsiness & complete consciousness. Although I had no intentions of continuing but my addiction to the monthly paycheck made me go on with the night shift. On a routine round intended for inspection of work being done, happened to cross a group a people working on an the 10th floor below the beautiful night sky. With pure intentions of giving a cursory glance at their work & admiring the night sky I crossed them, but couldn't help overhearing a cacophony of human sounds, shouting, yelling & arguing about the correct procedure to Lift some piece of equipment. Suddenly remembering that my paycheck was smaller than the cost of the equipment I rushed to take a look into the matter. Coming closer it became clear that the yelling and shouting was being done by the burly supervisor & on the receiving end was a tall lanky boy in his early twenties, sharp piercing eyes but right now low on confidence.


At the end of all the yelling & 'i told u so' the supervisor just raised his doubts regarding his knowledge.


"Have u ever worked before?"


At this point the boy raised his eyes to meet the supervisor's & replied with a Sarcastic tone, "Completed my MA in Sanskrit last year, couldn't land up with any job so had to join here. Agree am low on experience but will catch up soon"


For a few seconds the stars stopped twinkling, the breeze felt chilly & the moonlight felt harsh and piercing.


Could just say - Ek Anubhav hua naya, main maun reh gaya..!!!

The Influence curve

The Influence curve
Ever seen the Stoletov curve, Stoletov was the first to show that with the increase of the magnetic field the magnetic susceptibility of iron grows, but then begins to decrease. The below figure might clear your doubts


The same kind of curve can be seen or felt in the real life too. If u have a little sis you might feel the effect of your magnetism on her.
Forever that I can remember she had been influenced by what I have been doing or liking. The kind of sports she chose, to the books she read everything came from me. Even today if you compare the likes sections of both our FB pages you might find 80% similarities. That’s the kind of influence you leave on her, and it better be a good one. As for me I am satisfied that I had been able to guide her in at least two things viz. great books & great movies.
Just like the curve there comes a peak when all her decisions are based on what I had been choosing or doing, and then gradually over a period of time the curve line goes down, for better. And seeing the curve go down you feel happy that she is now capable of her own decision making, with her own circle of influence be it friends, studies or work.
But many a times in the great country of ours we see although the effect of the magnetic field decreases on the Iron, the more the family tries to influence the poor iron. But it’s been scientifically proven even if you increase the strength of the field the influence will not increase , and then they resort to methods only acceptable in the great country of ours, were ,freewill, it seems is the most crushed item after flowers.
Coming back to the curve, the curve seems to be incomplete; not able to depict the real life picture, wherein the opposite has started to happen. The little iron has now started to influence the magnetic field itself.
The little sis is a big influence for me these days, what I choose, movies I watch books I read. Also she has gained a lot of respect in the field of various family matters. The little iron has went on to become Iron Sharmila it seems.
On one such occasion, I was on an official trip to Nagpur & was not able to get return tickets on time, so as a last resort I called her to arrange the same. I knew she had contacts in Nagpur, but had shifted to Pune way back so I doubted if it might work.
Don’t worry your ticket will be done. She says confidently and disconnects the phone.
A day passes by, ticketing for the great Indian railways is not an easy job and I lose hope.
Next morning suddenly she calls me back.” tekdi wale ganeshji ke paas chale jaana you will receive your ticket” and just like an informer ,after passing the bit of info she disconnects.
We reach the destination and wait in our car feeling like gangstas waiting for a delivery, shifting in our seats glancing cautiously at people with enquiring looks passing by.
Suddenly a guy dressed in white cotton shirt & black formal pants peers down the car window.
“Are you the one travelling tonight” he asks enquiringly
Both me and my friend kept looking at him, the white cotton shirt’s Chinese color was just giving way for a slight glimmer to pass through, at close inspections the glimmer came from a heavy gold chain, which went well with all the golden rings on this four fingers laced with gemstones of varied kinds.
We did feel like gangstas, and the delivery was here. The don himself seemed to have been pressed into action. How such a person could be compelled to make the delivery, the thought kept repeating.
All this thought process took place within a few seconds; we were still frozen in contemplation when he asked again, this time more politely “are you the one who is travelling tonight”
An abrupt “yes” from me started the conversation. Hey! He greets us jovially, “here’s your ticket” hands me over a white envelop. The envelope has “her” name written over it and instructions “donot take payment”
Despite reading I ask, “How much do I owe you”, he politely refuses with a smile. “Madam ne aapse payment lene se mana kiya hai”. I insist a few times but he won’t budge, and goes away smiling.
I checked the ticket, it was spot on. Called her back and cleared my doubts whether she was a Don of some kind that people were afraid of taking payments from me coz she had told so, she just laughed over the matter. And I kept thinking about the curve.
“Ae dada teri ticket ho gayi” she shrieks, and I guess it’s time for me to stop writing and go check the ticket, a good long vacation comes to an end tomorrow, I guess we won’t be together for quite a few time now so let me go get influenced. Haha



Eastern Promises

Eastern Promises
Promises. Making them - quite easy, but when they come back to haunt you for action, you curse yourself why didn’t you listen carefully before agreeing.
I had been dropping people to the railway station regularly, the beautiful road, the villages and the chance to ride the bike were stimulant enough and compelled me to do it time and again, people thought it was my generosity. People can be so naïve.
On one such occasion while I was busy boasting about some of my riding achievements to a small crowd of ill-informed overworked colleagues, one future Harvard alumni  came and struck a deal with me which required me dropping him to the railway station at 5 AM in the morning. In that charged up moment when I was in full swing shaping the minds of people, I agreed to the deal without much thought.
5 AM   - A call arrived, a deep baritone voice, quite concerned, was enquiring; would we be able to leave within the next 10 minutes.
Leave!! Where to? What for? It 5 AM in the morning bro, let me sleep that’s the best part of the day, don’t ruin it, meri Shahi neend me khalal mat daalo.
“But you had promised! How shall I catch the train then, I have no options left.” Says the voice on the other end of the phone. He did have the qualities to be a business graduate.
Promises. Making them – quite easy ………. *the lines started repeating in my mind in “main samay hu” voice*
A quick glance at the bike, and the faint recollection of a youtube video where the rider reached 170 kmph on the same bike gave me strength to proceed with the endeavor.
Getting ready was easy, 3 minutes flat I gave a call back, the Harvard prospect’s voice sounded wet, marred with an occasional thunderclap. The Monsoon had decided it was time to go ahead with the scheduled rainfall. The monsoon still decided for the people of India.
The bike just went out of the picture, my dreams of setting the land speed records where shattered. So took the Sedan killer to fulfill the promises. They were ready to hop in; a certain geeky guy who was constantly amused by the things around him too joined us. The company was good, the weather electrifying and the journey looked promising. The desert state got converted into a hill station during the rains the arid vindhyas took green cover at the hint of rains and all kinds of flora and fauna sprouted from nowhere to make the atmosphere magical if not romantic.
We had a timeline to reach the destination; the accelerator pedal was being used to its limits I felt like the rally car drivers; negotiating the village roads with harmonic precision and blinding speeds.
Whenever we crossed a village all we could see where children in school uniform, blue upon whites waiting in the heavy rainfall for some kind of conveyance which could take them to their school. At our age rainy day called for skipping school altogether, but skipping school was not an option here. People back at home must have left for work, and the only hope of having lunch for them was if they could reach school on time. Boys were not to be seen .
Girls. Clutching the bunch of books against their chest, their main concern was how to reach the school, they were on tractors tailors, mini pickups, trucks, and they were everywhere.   As if they had enrolled in some leadership program and their first assignment was to reach the school; come what may.   And boy where they not succeeding. 
The ad campaign for nike “Bleed Blue” had found an entirely new definition, the atmosphere had turned blue.
In the morning when you see the streets lined with kids donning their uniforms ready to leave for school you hope that the nation is on the right path.  You hope that the promises you made to the future generation are respected.
Suddenly the rains stopped for a few moments and you could see kids criss crossing the length and breadth of the entire highway hurrying to reach their destination.
We stopped the rally car, the sedan killer for a few minutes and got down to let them pass by and enjoy the fresh morning air.
Their certainly was an east wind coming.
What it had in store was beyond our grasp , but the train was to be caught the schedules to be met , time was a scarcity, we were from a different world so we continued ahead at breathtaking speeds but were we moving ‘ahead’ was the question.







What's in the name?

What’s in the name?
Shakespeare would have never thought his words might still get palagrised even after 400 years.  But many would agree too ki bhai wats in the name, mera naam oglipogli ki jagah dazzlingmirage hota to kya main wahi same lazy personality na hota?
To Janab baat aisi hai, last night around 2AM when only insomniacs, alcoholics & love lorn people are online, me being neither of the above was just planning to go to the dream world, a friends request arrived on my FB page. The howl of the coyotes in the background and the cloudy night sky made the event more dramatic.
A friend request at 2 am in the morning, the matter required a moment of close scrutiny couldn’t be postponed, so keeping the realms of the dreamland at arm’s length I started to investigate the matter.
The notifications column said “Ayesha Khan wants to be friends with you” Ayesha Khan..!!! 
Never knew anyone from the khan clan, a clear thought occurred.
A rapid click on the DP provided the answers. Array ye to Deepa hai …Deepa chouhan, an old schoolmate.
“How can she change her name for someone?”  He thought
While accepting the request the mind was still not ready to accept, what can compel someone to change their entire identity?
Don’t girls usually change their names after marriage? Do they really wish to do so? Or it’s just done to be part of the whole so-called society. Ya..!! the thought cleared many doubts, the changes I was speaking of were done under pressure to portray oneself as part of an institution, whereas the change that had shocked me this night was done out of Love for someone. Maybe.
Deepa u free spirit, you had the courage to defy the world. I say these words aloud reveredly coz recently I had made decisions fearing the so-called societal norms which altered people’s lives.
Also why do I, time and again, find such exemplary examples of using the freedom of choice regardless of the societal norms by girls only?
Reminds me of the great Eddie Vedder song
Society, you're a crazy breed
I hope you're not lonely without me
Society, crazy indeed
Hope you're not lonely without me

PS:  None of the names have been changed, not creative enough to think up pseudo names, also Coyotes are only found in the American continents, added for dramatic effect. As Indian wolves are an endangered species couldn’t use them PETA u know has peculiar ways to protest